人生計算機

不知不覺也做了快3個月的工了.
目前還覺得工作其實並不差.
雖然有時還是會嘮叨兩句,
不過到後來還是明白每件事還是要一步一步來.

定了很久的目標,依然沒看到什麼進展.
是現在走錯了嗎?
還是自己已經不再奢望未來了.

真想知道別人規劃的生活是怎樣的.
最近都聽人家說怎樣怎樣好難...這樣這樣就該滿足了.
是我嚮往得太遠了嗎?
怎樣才算現實的人生呢?

有沒有人生計算機呢?
多少分才算標準呢?
分數超過了別人會說你想太多了嗎?

未來的人生看不透, 至少自己要爭取不會後悔的結局啊!

最近看到大家都愛來愛去...好悠哉啊...
大家都說, "你為甚麼不找個啊?"

還是那幾句...

對我來說,居然還沒遇到最愛的,就隨緣吧.
反正現在也沒能力愛呢...
那樣總比自找麻煩好吧.

那麼,
明天開始再加油吧!!!
(一定要儘快完成手上的Project啊!!!)

Have you cried before?

Someone asked me this today, but I did not really reply with the answer deep in my heart. I wish I could reply with a really clear answer. Well, I just don't think that anyone will understand how I felt when I was crying at the back of the world.

I cried because I miss my home.
I cried because I regret.
I cried because I worry about the future.
I cried because I still cannot decide for the future.
I cried because I am still out of the track to my future path.
I cried because I still don't know what they want.
I cried because I took a wrong move in a relationship.
I cried because I think I had make a move that is better to remain the current than re-correcting.
I cried because I am too emotional.
I cried because I have too many things that I can never share with someone else.
I cried because I am still here without the control of variables when the world are still changing as it should.
I cried because I think too much?
... ...
... ...

My world was just too hard to be described with words.

红线呢~？

愛∞無限－梁景皓篇

愛∞無限－宋瑞恩篇

愛∞無限－李民碩篇

片头曲：我们都怕痛

也许是怕了，也许是不想再痛了...

找寻中的位子

女孩子20岁左右是她最美丽的。这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。

男孩子20岁左右的时候是他最暗淡的日子，这时什么都没有，不能独立又不想依赖，挣扎着彷徨着，寻找着自己的位置，所以如果一个男孩子在他20岁左右的时候遇见了与他年纪相当的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，因为这个女孩子是用用自己最美丽的年华陪他走过了最暗淡的日子！女孩只有陪他走过，女孩将永远幸福下去。

男孩子的部分还真对了，我还在努力的找寻自己的位置呢。

Funemployed by Wong Fu Productions

The recent web series produced by one of my favorites Youtube channel - Wong Fu Productions with 11 episodes.

I like it because these guy are creative in which way you can see some not so common jokes.

Watch the rest from their site.

The Gamer's Day After Games

It has been quite some times since my last played, with a group of new friends in a CC. I can never forget the emotion expressed by the gamers after the game. You can hardly differentiate the difference between 2 gamers after their games.

1. Start the conversation, about the games. Excitingly.
2. Begin with the last game.
3. If lose, blame the imba'ness of other team/heroes.
4. If win, talk about your every moves in the games and laugh at the guy you just pawned in the games.
5. Laugh by the other guy that pawned you in the games.
6. Emo a while when people say you took some wrong moves in the games.
7. Discuss about the strategy and plan on how to revenge this sort of game. Usually you will ask the most pro sifu in the team.
8. Continue with earlier games, if there is one.
9. Repeat step 3 to 8 for this game.
10. Back to step 2, and express it with a even more exciting emotion.
11. Restart everything until its time to go home.

What else, the memories are sweet. :)

November's Playlist

The only song that is looping infinitely in my playlist for this month. The chorus just non-stop playing in my mind.

蘇打綠 sodagreen-無眠（國語版）MV 官方完整版

無眠

詞：吳青峰 曲：史俊威

今夜的月光超載太重

照著我一夜哄不成夢

每根頭髮都失眠

天空他究竟在思念誰

是不是都和我一樣

揮不去昨日甜美的細節

才讓今天又淪陷

你現在想著誰 有沒有和我相同的感覺

固執等著誰 卻驚覺已無法倒退

曾經想一起飛 在自己心中蓋了座花園

把你的一切 都種在這個地點

卻像魚 守在裡面

（卻是魚 守在裡面）

（像條魚 守在裡面）

（守著幻影 葬在裡面）

不管要多少時間多少眼淚多少落空來等待

不管你是不是會回來

其實我也不明白 為什麼如此傻傻地期盼

你是我僅有的愛

Is that a lie? or hope.

Sometimes I felt that I am telling a lie, telling things that I somehow in some stage of my life will feel this might not be possible to accomplish. In short, these are just a dream. To be honest, I told many things I am hoping for, to happen, maybe, in the future, or never.

People tend to tell me what possible and what not possible, I appreciate your advices. But, I am kind of optimistic. Its either do it till the best, or stop it.

I am just trying to struggle through the hard time and try my best, at least they are not exactly a "dream" to me, at least to me, right now, I think.

Evidence spotted! Time Machine in the future?

This is not about how Doraemon is found or how Doraemon comes out from your drawer. Back to the title, do you ever believe that in one day we will have this thing called "Time Machine" to travel around the past and future?

Seriously, based on the little thing I know (well, at least some overview theories about time and speed), I don't quite believe if this is possible. 

Let's make a small example, if there is a Time Machine, will you use it to go back to meet yourself in the past to aid "yourself"? Why not when it can make your life better? But theres an issue here, have you recently met someone else that looks like what you see in the mirror now? I don't know but I think I have not since I am not someone that keep "scanning for myself" all the time while walking around.

Case #2. Any changes made through the history is what something make you to be the you "now". So, any result based on the changes you made to the past is already applied to what you are currently with. Thus, the past can be changed, but the "current" would not be affected by your changes. This is because "it is the changes that you made to the past created the current you."

Both cases is referring to the past, but what about the future? Well, I can't explain about the future.

But, on the other hand, while seeing through all the happening since the human evolution, you will never know what is going to happen in the next 10 years, just like you never know anything about the modern technology 10 years ago. So, this is the evidence:

Weekly World News during year 1918

Taken from: http://hilobrow.com/2010/10/28/another-pluperfect-pda/ 

I don't know if the picture itself is somehow edited and "photoshop'ed" by some superb graphic designer, but what will you do if such really thing exists? I am sorting priorities... Just too many to be changed.